Bluish Boy

My bluish boy
I have seen you.
Even though I was not there
You painted my favorite color.
My bluish boy
I have seen you.
Even though I was not there
You spread happiness in my life.

Hyderabad, India 

Telephone

She said
the new person has come
and sat on my chair
They said that chair is mine.

On phone, she said
they don't want me to go from there.
Your namesake---her heart resembles yours.


Also, in my life
a new person has come
who cares for me.
If I bring her here in this city
She would happily float in Hussainsagar.

People who really know me
They know I stand by them
even when everything is not right.
So, I stand by you
And I wait for your words.

Hyderabad, India

You can't

You can't stop a poet
to express her emotions
for her beloved.
A poet knows thousand ways
to communicate;
If you take away pen
She would find charcoal
If you take away charcoal
She would use her blood.

Lucknow, India

Our Little Happiness

We had little happiness.
We found happiness through color.

He was no more lonely;
he felt no more alone
as he knew
he finally found his
hetero-romantic asexual other.

Similarly, I was happy to find him
After so many days
after so many years
after so many turmoils.

We had little happiness
We found happiness through color.
The world around us is too harsh
It even couldn't bear our little happiness.

Lucknow, India

Interrogrator

The interrogator asked
What future I was hoping?
I said I didn't think in that terms.
After a pause I added---There is no future.
I replied what they wanted to hear.

Your name was used
to extract information
and anybody would fall into that trap.
It was used such a way 
that you don't want to see me
but you wanted to know
how I perceived all the things alone
without any reciprocation.


Later, when I was with "me"
I laughed thinking
who are these people to weigh
the cost-benefit ratio of our relationship?

So, dear --now I ask us:
What future do we see together?
So, dear--now I ask you:
What future do you see with me?

Lucknow, India

My heart melts

I only dare
I only dare
to criticize
cause you gave me the right.

So, even though I criticize,
at every criticism
my heart melts
like the melting glacier at Karakoram.

Lucknow, India

There are many

I always thought
she is equally good
and she has at least bits of your golden heart
Otherwise, how could you live--I wondered.
But, all my notion about her
has been transformed recently.

Seems like you will continue to live 
your life with everything--but anything genuine.
And in our country there are many like you.
However, I don't fall under that "many"
Being a relatively free human being
I would certainly evade
the shackle of regulatory mechanism. 

Lucknow, India 

Loveless & Feminism

Even embracing less love
Or suppressing emotions
People would continue to spend
their lives side by side.
It seems that the world around us
shrinks seeing anything authentic.
Therefore....
Feminism is just not needed for women
irrespective of where they live;
It is equally required for men
to liberate themselves. 

Note: Originally drafted on September 19, 2019.

Lucknow, India 

Not Giving Up

First time in my life

Yes, the first--

I feel not to give up. 

I feel not to admit defeat. 

Even though 

I will be marooned and doomed

I can't give up on you. 

Lucknow, India